i kinda wanna crawl into bed and hide under the covers and cry or just go lay outside on the grass with the cats and cry. but my mom's awake and i don't want to burden her with more worry. i just wish things were easier. so apparently i've decided just to sit here and cry instead of those other places. and the fucking cat just wants more food. no comforting me in my hour of need as i do her. i've got emotional needs too little cat. where's my snuggles huh? fuck it i'll just feed you. you're just gonna sit there and cry more. i'm crying too bitch i'm crying too. she doesn't gaf. /sigh